Just went for counseling regarding my further education today.

I have been in a dilemma when it comes to choosing my place of study. For couples, this will be a parting of the ways if you’re not studying the same subject or have different aims. Being the girl I was, it was a very unbearable thought to be separated with a loved one, not by severe congested Malaysian traffic to reach each other, but hell, now we’re talking about separated by SEAS.

I simply can’t bear that. Even though I’ve cheated myself that maybe parting ways for a good 2 or 3 years is a good thing for us as we’ll be able to replenish ourselves, gain more knowledge, see more and do more without the burden of worrying about your other half, yadda yadda, still, I just can’t bring myself to separate from my partner when I have the option of being close. We don’t have to live under the same roof, but at least within reach, right?

All these worrisome feelings, however, are outdated now as I found out from the counselors that my place of study, clashes with where my dearest is going.

-.-

And I was dreading the day comes when we’ll be separated.

Funnily enough, this leads me to think whether being in the same place, doing the same things together will affect our relationship.

Will we grow too used to each other?
Will we become overly dependent?
Will we not be able to be independent because we know we’ll be there for each other?
Will we be too engrossed with each other, we cannot savour the taste of campus life in a foregin land?
Ultimately, will spending too much time together, make us grow bored of each other?

Think, think, think. And I asked my dear when he was driving us home in his cute little car all the way from Subang.

‘Aiyoh, don’t think too much lah, won’t let it happen.’

He, indeed, is not a man of words, as stated in his blog. Yet, he gave me the most adorable smiles and expressions to prove his point. Frustrating it is to have a boyfriend who won’t coo you with sweet verbal nonsense (oh wait, don’t have meh? Some other ‘type’ of verbal I guess, ha!), I have to learn to appreciate what I have. Afterall, how many people can actually genuinely love you just because you’re you, and not for any other reason?

How can I not believe someone whom I have known nearly half my life, and hopefully will get to know continually for the rest of my life? I have great confidence in our relationship. Us.

You hear me, dear? Both of us. Because we’re single. United.

Muacks~

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